life is not easy...

a little too not over you

2009-04-18T22:17:00.003+08:00

it never crossed my mind at all
that's what i tell myself
what we had has come and gone
you're better off with someone else

it's for the best i know it is but i see you
sometimes i try to hide what i fell inside
and i turn around, you're with him now
i just can't figure it out

tell me why you're so hard to forget
don't remind me, i'm not over it
tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
i'm just a little too not over you, not over you

aren't memories supposed to fade?
what's wrong with my heart?
shake it off, let it go
didn't think it'd be this hard

should be strong, movin' on but i see you
sometimes i try to hide what i fell inside
and i turn around, you're with him now
i just can't figure it out

tell me why you're so hard to forget
don't remind me, i'm not over it
tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
i'm just a little too not over you

may be i regret everything i said
no way to take it all back, yeah!
now i'm on my own, how i let you go
i'll never understand
i'll never understand!

tell me why you're so hard to forget
don't remind me, i'm not over it
tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
i'm just a little too not over you

tell me why you're so hard to forget
don't remind me, i'm not over it
tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
and i really don't know what to do
i'm just a little too not over you, not over you

love story

2009-04-18T17:24:00.003+08:00

we were both young when i 1st saw you
i close my eye
and the flashbacks start
i'm standing there

see the light
see the party, the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
and say hello, little did i know

that you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you please dont't go, and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess
it's a love story baby just say yes

so i sneak out to the garden to see you
we keep quiet 'cause we're dead i they knew
so close your eyes
scape this town for a little while

'cause yuo were romeo, i was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
but you were everything to me
i was begging you please dont't go and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess
it's a love story baby just say yes

romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
this love is difficult but its real
don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
it's a love story baby just say yes
oh oh

i got tired of waiting
wondering i were ever coming around
my faith in you is fading
when i met you on the outskirts of town, and said

romeo save me i've been feeling so alone
i've been waiting for you but you never come
is this in my head? i don't what to think
he knelt to the ground and pulled out of a ring

and said, marry me juliet
you'll never have to be alone
i love you and that's all i really know
i talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
it's a love story baby just say yes

oh, oh, oh, oh
'cause we were both young when i 1st saw you

2009-04-18T16:04:00.001+08:00

without you

2009-04-18T10:15:00.004+08:00

i just wanna be alone tonight
i just wanna take a little breather
'cause lately all we do is fight
and every time it cuts me deeper

'cause sumthing change
you've been acting so strange
and it's taking its toll on me
it's safe to say that i'm ready to let you leave

without you, i live it up a little more every day
without you, i seeing myself so differently
i didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end
when i watch you walked away, well, i never thought i'd say
i'm fine without you

called you up 'cause it's been long enough
and you said that you were so much better
we have done a lot of growing up
we were never meant to be together

'cause sumthing change
you've been acting so strange
and it's taking its toll on me
it's safe to say that i'm ready to let you leave

without you, i live it up a little more every day
without you, i seeing myself so differently
i didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end
when i watch you walked away, well, i never thought i'd say
i'm fine without you

'cause sumthing change
you've been acting so strange
and it's taking its toll on me
it's safe to say that i'm ready to let you leave
whoa! yeah!

without you, i live it up a little more every day
without you, i seeing myself so differently
i didn't wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end
when i watch you walked away, well, i never thought i'd say
i'm fine without you

without you!
without you!
without you!

i just wanna be alone tonight
i just wanna take a little breather

kupu-kupu kertas

2009-04-18T10:11:00.007+08:00

Setiap waktu engkau tersenyum
Sudut matamu memancarkan rasa
keresahan yang terbenam, kerinduan yang tertahan,
duka dalam yang tersembunyi jauh di lubuk hati
Kata-katamu riuh mengalir bagai gerimis

Seperti angin tak pernah diam
selalu beranjak setiap saat
menebarkan jala asmara, menaburkan aroma luka
Benih kebencian kau tanam bakar ladang gersang
Entah sampai kapan berhenti menipu diri

Kupu-kupu kertas
yang terbang kian kemari
Aneka rupa dan warna
dibias lampu temaram
ho ho ho ho ho

Membasuh debu yang lekat dalam jiwa,
mencuci bersih dari segala kekotoran
ho ho ho ho

Aku menunggu hujan turunlah,
aku mengharap badai datanglah
Gemuruhnya akan melumatkan semua
kupu-kupu kertas

Kupu-kupu kertas
yang terbang kian kemari
aneka rupa dan warna
dibias lampu temaram
ho ho

Kupu-kupu kertas
yang terbang kian kemari
aneka rupa dan warna
dibias lampu temaram
hu hu

Kupu-kupu kertas
yang terbang kian kemari
aneka rupa dan warna
dibias lampu temaram

i can't smile without you

2009-04-18T09:30:00.003+08:00

you know i cant smile without you
i cant smile without you
i cant laugh and i cant sing
i'm finding it hard to do anything

you see i feel sad when you're sad
i'm feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what i'm going through
i just cant smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would have believed that
you were part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know i cant smile without you
i cant smile without you
i cant laugh and i cant sing
i'm finding it hard to do anything

you see i feel sad when you're sad
i'm feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what i'm going through
i just cant smile

now some people say happiness takes
so very long to find
well, i'm finding it hard
leaving your love behind me

and you see i cant smile without you
i cant smile without you
i cant laugh and i cant sing
i'm finding it hard to do anything

you see i feel sad when you're sad
i'm feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what i'm going through
i just cant smile

saat terakhir

2009-04-18T09:19:00.003+08:00

Tak pernah terpikir olehku
Tak sedikitpun ku bayangkan
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan kusendiri

Begitu sulit kubayangkan
Begitu sakit ku rasakan
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri

Dibawah batu nisan kini
Kau tlah sandarkan
Kasih sayang kamu begitu dalam
sungguh ku tak sanggup
Ini terjadi karna ku sangat cinta

*Inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
Jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
Hanya mampu ucapkan
Selamat jalan kasih

#Satu jam saja kutelah bisa cintai kamu;kamu;kamu di hatiku
Namun bagiku melupaknmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup
Satu jam saja kutelah bisa sayangi kamu… di hatiku
Namun bagiku melupaknmu butuh waktuku seumur hidup
di nanti ku……

reep:*
# 2x

hoooo….wouwo….

kekasih yang tak dianggap

2009-04-18T09:18:00.002+08:00

aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu
aku pelangi tak memberi warna di hidupmu
aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
akulah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

selalu itu yg kau ucapkan padaku

reff:
sebagai kekasih yg tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
menahan setiap amarah

aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
aku lah bintang yg hilang ditelan kegelapan

repeat reff

sebagai kekasih yg tak dianggap
aku hanya bisa mencoba bersabar
ku yakin kau kan berubah

suatu pagi...

2009-04-18T08:41:00.001+08:00

bangun-bangun semua orang da tak ade. hanya aku dan ikan. aku xtawu mane semue orang pegi. nyanyian perut menemani aku. huargghh..laparnye. lupe, malam tadi aku xmakan. i need sumtin 2 eat. jap lagi kene ngadap berhelai-helai kertas yang mengandungi banyak huruf. mampukah aku nak mengadap? hmmmm..ikan aku teman aku la jawab nyer. xtawu biler budak-budak nie nk balik berlari.. ku berlari dan terus kan menyanyi..~ape lagi ek sambungan nyer. ikan aku da makan. aku nak makan ape ek.mula kan hari mu dengan secawan nescafe. 1 now 1 nescafe. hohohoho. jom minum...

ape maksud sebuah perhubungan..

2009-04-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

kepercayaan??
pentingkah sebuah kepercayaan?
pentingkah sebuah kejujuran?
kenapa aku penat dengan sebuah hubungan?

kepercayaan memang sangat penting..
tanpa kepercayaan, tiada makna sesebuah perhubungan..
kepercayaan membawa makna kebahagiaan..
aku perlukan kepercayaan...
segala kegembiraan aku terletak pada kepercayaan...
hanya kepercayaan...

kejujuran...
mengajar kita menghargai sesebuah hubungan...
suatu kekuatan dalam sesebuah hubungan...
puncanya kepercayaan terhadap diri...

aku hanya inginkan kepercayaan..
aku penat...
penat untuk sebuah kepercayaan yang sentiasa diragui...
kenapa...

kepercayaan dan kejujuran...
pentingkah?

ikan ku....

2009-04-17T23:56:00.001+08:00

hmmm...ari ni ade ikan baru..harap2 dia idop lame..dulu ade ikan guppy asek mati jer..anak da banyak pon asek mati..sedey jer..ni arap2 dia idop lame..kaler oren,tapi ekor dier itam..sangat cergas..

2008-12-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

Life is what we make it, always has been, always will be. ~Grandma Moses

2008-12-24T00:05:00.001+08:00

Life is simple, its just not easy. ~Author Unknown

2008-12-24T00:01:00.001+08:00

To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there. ~Barbara Bush

2008-12-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck